Wish to Be A “Daddy’s Little Girl”

Have you ever had a person in your life that means so much to you deep down inside, but it’s like you mean nothing at all to them? It’s like the things that should have a place in your heart and can’t be removed are things that don’t even have a place in your heart and can be removed so easy. It kind of seems as if you can go all day, week, month, or yearlong and not think about a person, but as soon as you see them or someone brings their name up, memories of that person come racing back. There could be the shortest stream of memories in your head about this person, but it’s like you have been around and seen this person every day and spent every minute with them. I used to dream about being right there under your arms, but it was like my dreams never came true. When my dreams did come true they weren’t dreams they were nightmares haunting me for no reason. In every dream that I ever dreamt about you, there was always an ending that made me walk away with more tears than a child could cry, but at the end of the day I realized that there were so many other dreams that I had and how I was waiting for them to come true. Seeing the face of you now doesn’t make me bitter or cynical about anything, it just reminds me of how everything that you missed out on in my life was your fault. If you think you can rewind the film and replay it, you’re wrong. I’m moving forward and pushing on to the great person you have made me to be, not remembering all the bad but only the good. Not thinking about how much I want you in my life, but how much I don’t need you in my life, but wish I had you there just for the support. There just comes a point in life when you have to give up on all the stupid things that come your way, and only worry about the things that make you happy. After this I can say how I was never a “Daddy’s Girl,” because I never was. After all the hoping and wishing that things would get better, they never did so now it’s time to move on and forget about all the things that could pull you back in life.  Always remember, you can’t make someone be in your life and they don’t want to be.